Screw this...I'm not ready

I thought I was ready.
I thought wrong.

I'm not ready for dating again. Not yet. Damn you, B.A.
Why are men such idiots?  You included really.  I wish I could say otherwise, but seriously.  You know I'm right.  What you did was idiotic.  I'm not going to sugar coat it.  But at the same time, you showed me things I want from a relationship.  Things that are apparently much harder to come by than I'd thought before you.

Okay, maybe before you I just didn't know some of it existed.  I'm not sure if I should thank you or curse you for that.  Either way.  I've been out with 3 guys.  None of them measure up.  I think I'm done.

If God wants me to find "him" then God just might have to put him on my doorstep with a t-shirt on that says "This is 'the one'. Love, God".  Yeah...I think I'll just wait for that to happen. ::rolling eyes::